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I AM Walking the Stations of the Cross with You
My beloved sons and daughters, I am grateful to be with you in this city. I am grateful that you can listen to the whisperings of my heart and that you can know the Path with me. For I have never left any one of you. Even as I stood by my Son all the way to Golgotha, I stand by you. I am there when you are on the cross and I am there when you are taken down from the cross.
You have not been taught that the fourteen stations of the cross are for you to walk also. In this hour it is not only the Christ who is crucified but the Woman and her seed, for fallen angels move about in earth bodies tormenting women and children. Yes, I am here to walk the stations with you.
The soul of both man and woman is feminine. The Bridegroom is Christ, your divine spouse, who is masculine. So know, then, that the soul of each and every one of you is mutable and yet it becomes immutable by love, by light, by glory, by self-giving.
Therefore know the way of the bearing of the cross of world karma, for you are already bearing the cross of your own karma. You have become accustomed to its weight even though you are not always comfortable with that weight. And so you surfeit yourselves in loud and dissonant music, in TV and motion pictures that have no merit, in drugs or alcohol - anything that will silence the burden of the soul and the weight of karma, if but to escape it for a night before you must take up your burden again in the reality of the day.
I, then, am the Angel Mother who mothers your soul. Each one of you can be a portion of myself. The intercession of the Divine Mother in the earth is the great need of the hour. The Divine Mother is universal and universally present with you through her ministering angels. Millions of legions of my angels respond to the prayers of all people to the Divine Mother, she the Great Goddess. Call her what you will, configure her according to any of your religious paths - the Mother is the Word, the Great Shakti of Brahman. And the Mother in her various garments does go forth to rescue her own.
Now as never before the children of the world have such a profound need for mothering and nurturing. Mothers of the world, fathers of the world, I speak to you: Your children need not so much of the goods of this world and the material things that you work and work to give them to the neglect of the moments of tenderness and caring and intimacy that are paramount in their soul development. They need you and they need you every hour.
Do not harm them anymore! Do not harm them anymore, even though your parents and care givers have harmed you, your soul, your inner child. And if it is possible for you to undo the harm done to you (and indeed it is!), then you will be free not to mar the souls of your children by passing on to them the pain you experienced in your own childhood.
And in this age of materialism and neglect of the oneness of mother and child, let the protective arm of the blessed father give comfort and strength to both. Let the Holy Family and your family be the sign of the Aquarian age. Let tenderness be the mark of your being, your speaking, your interchanges with children and adults alike.
And when you meet souls who are hollowed out, who have no sense of caring for themselves or others, no tenderness toward life, souls in whom the fire is gone out, know that so often this comes from their childhood when they suffered abandonment at some level - the emotional level, the spiritual level, the physical level. And in that abandonment, they also abandoned themselves and they left off tending the candle of identity, and the flame was snuffed out.
Think how many are behind bars because they committed crimes when it was the only way they knew to get their mother's attention. Well, I tell you, one and all, they have my attention. My attention is on them. And I ask you to pray for those who have come out of dysfunctional homes and families, this dysfunction having been carried from the fathers to the sons from generations long past.0
How shall the world be healed unless some say:
I will turn this thing around!
I will invoke the violet flame and the Holy Spirit!
I will accept my healing in my four lower bodies.
I will pursue therapy for my soul.
I will resolve the schisms in my psyche.
And I will come to the point of wholeness!
I will stop the momentums of generations before me
I have no greater calling than to restore to every part of life
the gentle communication of the Mother:
These are the words of the Divine Mother.
I am a mother among the heavenly hosts. And, as you know, I am called the Queen of Angels. In that office I send all angels of heaven to nurture life and to take from mothers their hardness of heart toward their children that has come from their own abuse by this one and that one and another and another.
I send angels in embodiment such as this Messenger to teach them to call upon Mercy's flame, the flame of forgiveness, which is the violet transmuting flame, for the melting of that hardness of heart and for the restoration of the living, pulsating heart of fire, heart of flesh, immaculate heart of a mother's eye that sees only the beauty of her child and protects her precious one and does not allow the world to tear that child from her womb or from her breast.
Of course I stand against abortion and the aborting of life and the mission of a soul! Of course I do! For I know that in every child that is aborted there is a Christ-potential and there is a mission. And therefore abortion is the aborting of the divine plan of a living soul. For God has ordained the return of each soul to physical incarnation in that special timing when that soul may come into life with her group, with the many who played their parts with her on the stages of ancient civilizations when they made good and bad karma together.
There is a law of generations that governs those who are born under the common influences of the slow-moving planets and the fixed stars - generations of people who must be born together, play together, grow up together, study together and take dominion over the earth together as their elders grow old and pass to them the torch of civilization.
I cry out to you! I cry out on behalf of 29 million souls whose mission has been aborted in this nation alone!1 I speak in their defense, for this Messenger gives me a mouthpiece and a voice. I cry out to you and I tell you, a soul is a living heart and a soul has full conscious awareness, even in the hour of the conception of the physical body, of being in life, of being alive!
And have you not seen the films of the soul in her new body swimming in the womb, dancing for joy and even performing pirouettes?2 Have you not seen this joyous activity taking place in the womb of the mother?
Therefore pray for those whose hardness of heart, passed on from generation to generation, has allowed them to silence the heartbeat and the cry of the child within. This child within is part of mother, part of father, part of life: life that is sacred, life that is God.
I am not old-fashioned, I am a realist. And I am telling you of the realities of the karma of abortion.
If abortion has entered your life, I say, call upon the violet flame for the healing of the soul in pain for its mission cut off. Call on the law of forgiveness for yourself. Do not condemn yourself, for I, Mary, do not condemn you, but I urge you to seek early the opportunity of serving life and caring for children that you might learn to love your own inner child and balance the karma of abortion.
And pray that in due course you might have a family and bring in the soul or souls whom you aborted through ignorance in an hour when you were perhaps distraught, misled, faced with choices without being given the facts about the life that was aborning in your womb - or perhaps you knew and denied what you knew.
Blessed ones, America is not fulfilling her mission because millions of souls are not in life, are not growing up, are not taking their places at your side.
Whose twin flame has been aborted? Whose children-to-be?
Whose loved ones are not here?
Do you sometimes look around and say, "Where is what's-his-name? He should be here. Where is what's-her-name? She should be here, too."
I will tell you where they are. They are waiting in the wings of life in the heaven-world for parents to welcome them so that even belatedly they might take up their mission. I will not dwell upon this, for I desire not to burden you but to enlighten you. Yet this is one of the grave realities of our time, and you need to know it so that you will not incur negative karma and so that you can wake up others so that they do not incur negative karma.
I come, then, in profoundest concern for all children of earth and I ask you to champion their cause, for they are the seed of the Woman clothed with the Sun.
So often the child is defenseless. Who defends the child and the right of that child to breathe the air of freedom, to be carefree, to not go hungry, to learn his lessons and to grow up to enjoy life to its fullest maturity?
Who will defend the child? Midst the entire population of the planet, only the child is defenseless.
Yes, beloved, my angels come, Archangel Michael's angels come in defense of the child. May you come to the aid of children no matter what your profession! May you make time for children and for your own inner child!
Yes, make time for the children. Make time for them, for they so desperately need your love and in their little souls and in their little hearts they pray to God for deliverance.
Who will take the women and children down from the cross?
Let the Light of your mission be upon you now. I blaze the Light upon your own childhood and I send waves of healing for all hurt that may have been done to you. And you who are the strong and you who are the whole, may you take in your arms many of these precious ones. For this is an age for the succoring of life.
Now our angels come. They come in myriad numbers, clustering around you, tapping you on the shoulder and saying to each one: "Remember me? I am your cohort of Light. I was there when you were born. I have tended you, I have been with you. Come, I will show you the next step."
Feel the love of God in the angelic hosts. We are real, I promise you. We are real, we are ready and we are determined that this civilization will not go down for this or that darkness that has penetrated. For the judgments of the Lord Christ shall ultimately come for the binding of the rebel angels, and the burdens of life will ease up as you move into the twenty-first century. But just now and in these years to come, nine years and more from this hour, you will face challenges supreme.
I come, then, for the strengthening of your determination and to give you my promise that I, Mary, will come to you and care for you as I have cared for my Son Jesus. So call to me, for I AM your Mother of Love, most approachable and never condemning.
No, you are not dyed-in-the-wool sinners. Yes, you may have sinned. You may be ignorant of the laws of God and you may have broken some of his laws, erring on this or that side of the Law, but in you is that Divine Being, the Atman, which you are and ever have been from the Beginning.
I hold the immaculate concept for your Victory.
I AM your Mother cheering you on.
I will not leave thee, O my sons and daughters.
In this flame we seal our message to you this night. May you rejoice that your eyes are opened and that you can nurture your inner sight and therefore know and see those things which shall shortly come to pass.
With Raphael, I bow before the Light within you, ever the servant of your God Flame and your soul.
This dictation by the Blessed Mother with Angels of Healing attending was delivered by the Messenger of the Great White Brotherhood Elizabeth Clare Prophet on Saturday, February 27, 1993, during a weekend seminar, How to Contact Angels - Your Guides, Guardians and Friends Part 2, held at the Skokie North Shore Hilton, Chicago, Illinois. The Blessed Mother dictated directly following the dictation by Archangel Raphael. [N.B. This dictation was edited for print by the Messenger under the direction of the Blessed Mother.]
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My Therapy with Cathryn Taylor
After nearly ten years of staff service, I left the ranch on December 10, 1992. El Morya advised me to be in group and individual therapy for six months. Three days after I left, he gave a dictation that was subsequently published in the Pearls of Wisdom (vol. 35, no. 68). On the last page of the Pearl was the Bonding Prayer to his heart. I remembered your teaching that the reason we could not experience the bonding with El Morya or Jesus was that the inner child, or soul, was separated from the loving inner adult, fashioned in the image of the Holy Christ Self.
I contacted Cathryn Taylor, author of The Inner Child Workbook. The events that unfolded certainly were not just coincidences: Cathryn's publisher does not give out author phone numbers but did for me. Her phone recorder is usually on, but when I called from Montana she answered and I arranged to meet with her the following week in California. She normally would not allow new entrants to her class (a combination of individual and group therapy) but because there was a Christmas break she allowed me to catch up to three months of prior work. The remainder of the class would be six months (ending on my birthday), and she had no intention of leading this length of a class again. El Morya had left many clues!
My first meditation was visualizing my Higher Power and inner adult going to an empty movie theater to view a scene from the past. I saw El Morya sitting in the row before me. I recognized the turbaned Master by his Zen comments. Wow! What a boost to start inner child work with the father's kind attention in reviewing my past!
Although Cathryn is highly skilled, she believes she is not the healer; the healer is one's Higher Power. She strongly opposes a sympathetic tie to the therapist. As a facilitator, she merely teaches lifetime tools to "process" emotions - that is, to resolve one's psychology. She recognizes that we have to strengthen our tube of light (she calls it the "cylinder of light") and go vertically to our Higher Power to meet our needs, rather than horizontally to others.
The term codependent was coined for those addicted to being caretakers of alcoholics. But, by definition, codependency is meeting one's needs horizontally, so many people have this problem.
Most encounter groups engage people horizontally by having participants give feedback to each other's emotions. In our group, we each stayed within our own tube of light because each person must ultimately rely on his own Higher Power and inner adult to process emotions. Being within our tube of light, we can make the choice as to whether we want to act out our desires or whether we want to set a boundary.
I, as well as others, had fears about being exposed in a group setting. However, we all found that a camaraderie develops because whatever one's background is, growing up has its similarities - whether one was abandoned, hated by one's schoolmates, or fell into drug addiction to avoid coping. Group work helps one to open up and receive support.
We learned of each developmental stage: infant, toddler, young inner child, grade-school child, young teen, adolescent and young inner adult. One exercise was for each group member to isolate and express an internal criticism such as "I'll never succeed because I'm fat and ugly." Then the others in the group would take turns saying it, and the person would have to counter it each time. Week after week, we challenged and defused the internal dialogue. As El Morya said in his December 13 dictation, "You may have forgiven, been forgiven and shaken hands, ... but the hurt must be gone and the impressions it has made upon you." Cathryn explains that although the inner adult may have forgiven others, the inner child may not have.
Early on, I became stuck in therapy, stuck in the mud. Did I want change bad enough to get out? You can be weighed down by bitterness or a lack of forgiveness and not see the end result of therapy as becoming a new person. Thus, you won't work on your key issues and won't reveal your deepest pains to another. In one of my meditations, I found that the dweller-on-the-threshold did not want to lose control, which would happen if the inner child and the inner adult were to connect and take control.
Having come out of the mud, I began each week to write out a list of issues and make the calls to El Morya and Lanello to help me. When I couldn't think of anything to write, I would become anxious. But once I was in my session, the most glaring problem would surface. The Masters never failed me and would also lead me regularly to study a certain book or movie. And perhaps this daily tuning-in to El Morya helped me to get to know him. The I AM Presence also directs the healing. I noticed that each week situations would come up in our lives that would trigger issues for the particular childhood stage we were working on.
Week after week, burned bridges between the inner adult and inner child were reconstructed, so that later this inner connection became instantaneous. As I began to reparent the inner child, El Morya appeared in my childhood stages as the protector. In my meditations I saw him rebuke my parents, remove me from a dangerous scene, and so on. I often wept as I came to know him as my new father.
Surprisingly, I found that my inner teenager carried scars from not finding the Path. Jesus went to India as a teenager, but my teenager had her idealism crushed when life taught that the Guru was nowhere to be found (or that the twin flame was not to be found).
In inner child work, the inner adult seeks out the abandoned child and reparents him. Both grieve one's past, and the loving inner adult dismisses the unloving inner adult, who was created through experiences with one's parents. I found that my three most significant problem areas were shame, low self-esteem and anger.
The shameful sense of "not being good enough" leaves one feeling helpless, defective and unlovable. I have felt shame just looking into the eyes of El Morya in his portrait. The inner adult may see El Morya as loving but the inner child, who carries shame, feels unworthy.
When the inner child's need is not met, it will meet it subconsciously by engaging in disobedient or self-destructive behavior. Once an unwanted act has been committed, it is the adult who suffers the shame. Shame manifests in a destructive cycle along with compulsive/addictive behavior. Inner child work gives us tools to stop that cycle, heal and transform our shame.
Continuing to shame ourselves about a past event reflects anger toward God. We don't allow God to forgive us. Cathryn gave us exercises to clear up the constant self-criticisms. However, some shames are so deep that only our Higher Power can heal them, and one can be guided to clear these also.
I found that low self-esteem comes from the repression of feelings. When you don't acknowledge and deal with your bad feelings, you don't acknowledge your good ones either; then you feel increasingly worthless.
In my meditations, I saw a cobra coming out of my solar plexus. I called to Archangel Michael and he removed it. Then a black magician appeared. Low self-esteem is like an open wound. Dark forces occupy that hole in your aura until the Archangels come to heal it.
We disown ourselves by denying our feelings and not respecting the voice of the inner child. As I began to uncover my emotions, I found that I would not become angry when I should have at an injustice. I was unable to express anger in the moment but carried it inside of myself so that later a small incident would trigger repressed anger. As El Morya said in his December 13 dictation, "Your unloving inner adult may contain it [and unleash it upon just about anyone]." Repressed anger is anger toward God, whether it manifests as a livid rage or suicidal depression.
I had come full circle to understanding El Morya's message on anger against God! I saw the necessity to tackle it now so that I would not miss the ascension and have to face this anger in subsequent embodiments. El Morya said, "Thus, beloved ones, in the matter of unconscious anger and your dealing with it, I would suggest that when you are far enough along in your group or individual therapy, far enough along in the healing of your inner child, you tackle this."
It indeed did take a qualified therapist to help unleash that anger. One should not just express anger to others. It can be released through inner child techniques. Additionally, one needs to give the call for the binding of the dweller-on-the-threshold and lots of violet flame.
For three weeks I was assigned to some exercises in which I felt I was literally pulling out the repressed anger. I remembered El Morya's words: "You will not transmute it if you do not let it go." For me, this anger was the cause of my passivity and physical and mental problems. At some point in childhood I gave up dealing with my anger. El Morya said, "[Your failure to deal with anger] is an avoidance tactic. ... It is the soul's responsibility to deal with her own reaction to what has been done to her." Now, as I am strengthening my loving inner adult, I am learning to deal with it!
No doubt El Morya saw the end from the beginning. Overcoming this anger allows one to begin taking responsibility for oneself, the Church and the education of the youth.
Although this work is serious, our group had a lot of fun too. We pretended we were two-year-olds throwing temper tantrums, acted out being at a slumber party, blew bubbles in the park ... and came to love each other fondly.
Each person can discover as I have that the bonding of the soul to El Morya's heart is possible not only because it is God's will but because it is El Morya's will.
The Inner Child Workbook by Cathryn Taylor is available through Summit University Press.