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I AM Brahma. I AM Vishnu. I AM Shiva.
Lo, I AM thy God in manifestation, the Triune One.
I speak to you, for my Son whom I have sent has spoken.1 Therefore, as his presence is yet upon the Messenger, I come. For through his mediatorship I commune with my own.
Thou canst not commune directly in the sense of establishing at-one-ment with me except through the Sacred Heart of the Son whom I have sent. And that Christ of Jesus, the same [Christ who] is the Christ of you whom you also shall one day fulfill, is the only begotten Son of God. This is the Universal Christ whom I have sent, whom I have individualized. And there is but one Lord and one Saviour, [who is] personified for you each one, for I have so loved the world that I have sent my only begotten Son to be the Mediator in your life.2
Thus, Jesus Christ I have called, I have sent, from the Beginning unto the Ending. Therefore receive him as the tester of thy soul. He does hold the office for this evolution of the only begotten Son. And the one who does hold that office becomes, therefore, the representative to you not only of that Universal Christ but of your own Holy Christ Self, to whom you are not yet bonded.
Thus, you have been washed and you are clean but not all3 and not altogether. And you are reaching for that oneness. The fire shall try you, even the fire of the sun. And unto the incarnation of the Word thou must pass through many veils of the garment of God to enter in.
Thus, inasmuch as the most important requirement of the hour for you, my children, is to enter in to that bonding, heart upon heart through Jesus your Lord, I am come to give impetus to that process and to make known to you that the love and the sweet love of the Son must be reflected in the mirror of your soul as you love in kind, with sweetness and adoration and childlike simplicity.
Blessed be the Mediator of the Word unto thy coming. Blessed is he that does receive him and she that does wear his bridal garment. The garment of the Lord, the garment of the Lord, the garment of the Lord! May you seek it in all of your goings and comings, in all of your doings.
Now you may become the devotee of myself as Brahma, myself as Vishnu, myself as Shiva or you may become the devotee of the Divine Mother, my consort in numerous manifestations. Make your peace with the Divine Mother and you will know her Son and love him and obey him and be wed to him. Make your peace with the Divine Mother. There shall not be then, there canst not be, any barrier twixt thyself and I AM THAT I AM.
O violet flame, saturate! O Shiva, consume! O Vishnu, illumine! O Brahma, let thy law be engraven again and again, reinfired in the inward parts. Thus I AM THAT I AM. And the personifications of myself you will find in these Three and in your Mighty I AM Presence.
I AM indeed God of very gods. I speak to you that you might know that I do speak through this Messenger not alone in the aura and sanctity of dictations but often in the offhanded comment or remark or gift or correction or observation or discipline or deepest love that you may witness as I pour through those eyes to you that love that you have known from the Beginning. May it melt the soul and reacquaint you with so much love.
Yet because thou hast rejected love from above, that love does come upon you as hardship, as karma, as the play, the lila,4 of the Mother, as the maya that you must pass through until you are literally exhausted, scratched and scarred, bowed down from passing through the astral marshes.
Yes, beloved, I shall woo you through the dark hours in an attempt to wean you from the glamour of Darkness. And it is a glamour, beloved, of the flesh and of the astral body. Seek not the vanity of this world but seek to offer thy soul as the acceptable offering.
The beauty of the soul transcends this world and the Ascended Masters veil their beauty from the eyes of mortals, who would lust after them rather than receive them and become like them. Mortality by nature lusts after the Light it cannot have and will not work toward. This mortal cannot attain immortality except it put off mortality and put on [immortality].5 Your soul is not mortal except she be bereft of the Bridegroom. In that sense of the word the soul can be lost.
Thus I come. See how near is God to you. See how personable, approachable. Wonderful is the presence, awesome the power, immense the immensity. So very near [is he to] thy whispering heart, thy quivering heartbeat, as the tiny bird of self does tremble like a hummingbird suspended in the presence of his God. [He is as] near as the offering [of God], yes, yet thou canst not catch the hummingbird. Even so, thou canst not catch thy God but I, as the hound of heaven, will catch thee one way or the other!
There is one way thou canst be rid of me, O soul. It is to reject myself as thyself and therefore to enter into the spirals of hell, where fallen angels deny that God and proclaim thine own unworthiness to be that God. Swiftly thou shalt run into outer darkness in this consciousness. Thy free will has decreed it. None may rescue thee.
Darker and darker and blacker and blacker is the abyss, but in the moment of the Call, of thy sending of a ray of light and hope and prayer and imploring, my angels shall attend thee. The equation, beloved, is this: by the time thou hast allowed thyself to tumble in the abyss, thou art already in the domain of evil spirits plotting thy descent.
Thus what strength, what memory, what love, what perception of that point of Light high, high above the abyss - that point of Light that does say: "I AM here. I await thy call. Call to me! Call to me as thy call does echo even in the canyons of Hades. Call to me and I will answer."
I have the capacity to reach you anywhere but I cannot reach you if you will not make the call and desire, as the desiring of all of the fire of thy being unfurled and rewound again as a tight coil as all of thyself does enter the Call:
The Prayer of the Penitent Heart
O my God, help me! Deliver me! I am in trouble. I am in the trouble of my own making and choosing, and the folly of my pride and rebellion has gone before me to dash all of the beauty and hope of my life.
O my God, I surrender to thy Law and Will! No longer shall I challenge thy universe, thy kingdom, thy God-government of hierarchies of angels who have never fallen from grace.
Yes, my God, I see all around me the fruits of Evil.6 I want none of it! I have descended to the bottom of the abyss and I am through with all of it and all of the cackling and the howling and the hooting of these depraved ones.
I wish to be made whole! And I am willing to walk every step of the way up the abyss. If it take a thousand years to climb out of the pit of oblivion, I now take the first step and I am coming Home! I am coming to thee, my God! And if perchance thou shouldst send to me thy mighty angel, I shall rejoice. But I shall know that step-by-step I will climb.
I will accept the conditions of the path of initiation according to my karma. I will not ask to be made an exception to thy law, O my God. I will fulfill all things, harvest my own wrong sowings, sow again good sowings in their place, reap fruit, distribute the fruit from my tree of life that all might eat of it and know I am being made holy day by day.
Thou hast given to me, O my God, the path unto transformation! I am transformed. I am transfiguring and being transfigured by thee day by day. I will climb the ropes. I will come to thee, O my God. Willst thou receive me to thyself once again?
This is thy prayer, beloved. And thy God does answer:
God's Answer to the Soul's Call for Deliverance
Yea, I shall receive thee. I shall receive thee in good time according to the cycles of my law and thy fulfillment thereof. Thus, I will give you a path and if you will endure unto the end of thy human creation and thy human karma, yes, I shall receive thee again. And in the interim in the twilight zone, there I have sent my Son. Receive him.
If in all humility to the deepest core of thy being thou shalt bend the knee and confess this Christ as thy Lord, I shall receive thee - wert thou a fallen angel, an archdeceiver or a former enemy of Christ. If thou shalt embrace my Son whom I have sent, I shall give thee to drink that thou shalt not thirst again.
This is my response to each and every soul who desires true salvation. Know that I AM THAT I AM and that I have outlined the Way, the Truth and the Life through my Son Christ Jesus, the Christ who is Jesus. Therefore take these teachings restored by his Messengers and mine. Take the Path and sip it. It is the strong meat7 of the Word. Sip it daily and feel the glow of a holy teaching suffusing the heart, expanding, increasing the law of being.
Yes, to those who have strayed from the hierarchies of angels or descended from the first estate of their Christhood, I offer the open door. The conditions must be met, the prayer of the penitent heart and the call must be given. If this be not forthcoming and an individual make the freewill decision to slink into the blackness, declaring the self unworthy, I say to that one: To so declare the self as unworthy is to take my name in vain. For I AM worthy. I AM thy worthiness unto the LORD. I AM worthy.
To deny self-worth, even if thou be a hardened sinner, is to deny me. He that denieth me has already self-denied himself and placed himself outside of my reach. Free will is the law of all octaves. Therefore, the individual who does so affirm does actually affirm this in defiance of me, in rebellion and anger against me. Affirming the not-self as a lesser god, that one does truly sever the tie [to me]. There is no greater self-denial that leads to annihilation than the affirmation of the absence of self-worth.
Is not the self I have given thee in the Beginning worth that self that is God? ["Yes."] I have given you that self that is the seat of identity and it is myself mirrored in you, for ye are made in the image and likeness of the Son of God that I AM, which image I did send forth from the point of the I AM THAT I AM.
I have created the self. Whatever portion of that self that does remain in you, you must accept. Whatever it is, whatever its degradation, wherever it has gone, it is all you have of that self that is the original gift. You must go after it to save it, to re-create it, to purify it and accept the lowly estate of that self until you should rise to the full manifestation of thy God-free being.
There is a sinister force out of Death and Hell that is conveyed electromagnetically through all those who serve Darkness. That consciousness is the steady vibration of the denial of selfhood. This, beloved, you must know as a most pernicious force of Evil that does bring about the demise of many.
Inasmuch as you have been taught to offer the invocation unto God for the binding of the dweller on the threshold and for the pulling of the plug on the seed of the wicked through the heart of Helios,8 I say to you, call for the binding of the dweller on the threshold that does send the vibration [of the denial of selfhood], almost as an ELF wave - in fact, that is what it is. Call for the binding of [that one] that does beam that message of non-self-worth, of the denying of the self created in God. [And call for the binding of the beam and the message as well.]
Bind the consciousness of the denial of self-worth that says, "I am not worthy." I AM is the name of God. To say this is to say, "God is not worthy. God in me is not worthy. I am worthless." When you are worthless and so say it, beloved, you have denied all God within you. And unless you shall recite the Prayer of the Penitent Heart that I have given you, in that point of the nonexercise of free will through an insidious and distorted pride, beloved, you cannot be reached.
I pray, then, and I send the call to you who dwell in this octave to understand that it is this point of the sinister message of the false hierarchies of fallen ones that you must go after for the binding of the entire planetary momentum of this sounding of a sound of God-denial that does pass like radio waves through all, though they cannot hear or sense it.
By this method and this key, I give you the option in Christ the Son to save souls and to invoke mighty angels for the binding of forces that keep so many in this state of consciousness. The bombardment comes from every quarter and sector of life, from every source of degradation, through drugs of pleasure and pastime defiling the body, through all manner of impure substance.
The alcoholic says, "I am worthless. Therefore I drink." The smoker says, "I am worthless. Therefore I allow the demons of nicotine into my brain and temple." The one who surfeits himself in sugar and sweets does say the same: "I am worthless. I do not deserve to be. Therefore, I shall enter into the destruction of my temple and my soul."
Understand that as you move through life, the weight you sometimes feel on the body as you bear some portion of planetary karma is the weight of souls who have chosen the spiritual suicide of self-denial and who are in the process of dying. This dying takes long, long cycles and therefore death is a dominant vibration on planet earth. Understand that this is the predicament of souls about to be lost,9 concerning which the Blessed Virgin has deep sorrow and tears that flow without ceasing.
Respond, then, to the call to save others but not without putting on the whole armour of God10 as the call to Archangel Michael, as the call for virtue and the strengthening of virtue in every organ of the body temple. Let the sound of virtue and many strains thereof be the strength of the purity of thy heart that in the presence of these forces [you shall stand and still stand]. And you shall not be left alone but you shall be taken by Archangel Michael and legions of Light to assist in waging this war against the denial of myself in my creation. This is the war being waged, the war that you must wage against those who deny myself in my creation.
Mesmerizing that creation to embrace that self-denial, these fallen ones think, therefore, that they escape the karma of the murder of souls; for they have so convinced souls to commit suicide [and so convinced themselves that they are not accountable for the suicide of souls].
Therefore thou shalt not be left alone in waging this war but thou shalt do battle with this momentum upon earth enjoined by Archangel Michael and his legions. They shall assist you in putting on that mighty armour and wielding the sword and you shall go out with them and come in with them, for this is dangerous work.
Therefore when you offer these prayers of challenge unto the momentum of the denial of God and of that spiritual suicide, do so in the protection of the circle of your sanctuaries and gather in at least twos and threes to make these calls. For, beloved, this vibration, this wavelength is the best-kept secret of Lucifer, of Satan and of the sinister force.
I have come this day, surrounded by ring upon ring of angels of Light, to personally deliver this message to you and this key. Understand that every other derangement of mind and schism of the psyche and all of the problems that are dealt with one by one can be traced back to that moment when the individual did deny the worth of God and the worth of the True Self, which is God within himself. The fallen ones have convinced the individual that the lower self has nothing to do with the Great God Self, that it is sinner beyond sin, beyond forgiveness, beyond repentance.
Nothing, and no one, is beyond hope, beloved. But the one who desires to be saved must ask to be saved.
Do you understand how many get beyond the point of desiring or asking and therefore are beyond the pale of the reach of those of the higher octaves who may descend no lower than the etheric plane?
Do you understand this, beloved? ["Yes."]
The argument arises in the minds of many people:
I tell you I have already saved that one by placing myself within him as the divine spark, as the soul that is the image and likeness of myself. If, by the free will I gave, the individual will deny all of this and allow that Light to be consumed by Darkness, then only the Mediator can save. Thus, the deep desiring of Jesus this day to prepare you, as quickly as the Law will allow, to enter in to that bonding to himself. His coming is, beloved, in the desire that you too may be mediators - mediators between himself and those in the deepest levels of despair.
Drugs alone can destroy the mind and cause immediate physical suicide by those who no longer have the mind that is a chalice for the true Mind of God. This has happened to many, beloved. Drugs themselves are the most deadly manifestation that comes from out of the Twelfth Planet and many sources of "the blackness of darkness forever"11 in the universe.
Do not, then, enter into that fallacy again that I do not need you to save these souls, for I tell you this day that I do need you! Seek, then, the salvation of your soul and its safety, that you lose it not by venturing into the depths of levels of vibrations that can overtake you suddenly as if you had been doused by chemical weapons, by smoke, by deadly gases and all at once you were no longer functioning.
It has been thirty years that this Messenger has served, preceded by the beloved Mark, who served many years prior to her coming. We have awaited the hour when the students of the Ascended Masters could see and know that point of the nerve of hell, that point of the ultimate destruction of the individual. It is a planetary beast of dimensions greater than the earth itself. Yet the hosts of the LORD can bind it in answer to your call.
I AM your God. I have come to speak to you. I have descended not through an Ascended Master or an Archangel or a Cosmic Being. I have come to speak to you as my sons and daughters, that you might know how much I have loved thee and how much I am truly a part of you. For you are my issue and my essence and my seed.
It does become your lifestream.
I AM the Light flowing over your crystal cord.
I AM the Light that feeds the Unfed Flame.
I AM thy allness. I AM thyself.
Thou art worthy to be my beloved Son.
Rise, then, to the dimensions of your Holy Christ Self
And choose to live forevermore!
This dictation by Brahma-Vishnu-Shiva was delivered by the Messenger of the Great White Brotherhood Elizabeth Clare Prophet on Friday, July 5, 1991, during FREEDOM 1991 held at the Royal Teton Ranch, Park County, Montana. [N.B. Throughout this Pearl, bracketed material denotes words unspoken yet implicit in the dictation, added by the Messenger under Brahma-Vishnu-Shiva's direction for clarity in the written word.] Throughout these notes PoW is the abbreviation for Pearls of Wisdom.
I am writing this letter after being awakened in the middle of the night. I was having a dream about you and my first thought was to get up and write this. (I'd rather pull the covers over my head!)
I would like to submit the following as my testimony for the "I AM the Witness" column:
I have known Mother for many years in this life (and others, I'm sure) and served on her staff, though presently I am living in the Southwest. There are many stories I could tell of intercession, mercy, grace and joy, but I'd like to write about this recent one to perhaps help another soul.
In the summer of 1990, I discovered I had endometriosis. This is a feminine condition where the uterine endometrial tissue is found outside the uterus. It may be found in several locations, including the ovaries, fallopian tubes, bladder and even intestines. Scar tissue and cysts can also form. Endometriosis is one of the main causes of infertility in women.
I was in a great deal of pain and discomfort and found myself unable to even decree. I could barely eat or work. I was alone and thought I was living my life in the best way I could. I wondered why this was happening to me. I kept strong faith in God and his purposes and called in my heart to Mother for help. I listened to her beautiful album Mother's Chakra Meditations: From My Heart to Buddha and received much comfort and peace from it.
One afternoon I could barely walk and sat on the patio to read the Bible. Many times in my life when I needed an answer I would call to God and then open my Bible to the exact page that I needed to read. I opened the Bible to the Old Testament and the words literally leapt off the page: "I the Lord thy God am a jealous God. ... Thou shalt have no other gods before me." I realized very calmly that I was balancing karma from another embodiment and felt great peace from this. I also remembered Mother's warning to us to not underestimate the returning physical karma beginning April 23, 1990.
I went to several doctors and read as much as I could about my condition. At this time I could not eat, so I lived on Ann Wigmore's recipes of wheat grass, rejuvelac, sprout drinks and vegetable juice (Be Your Own Doctor, Ann Wigmore). I found an excellent group of holistic doctors and they got me on a regime of homeopathic remedies, Chinese herbs and acupuncture (even in my uterus).
The allergy doctor discovered I had a lot of allergies, including allergies to most of the food I had been eating - like lettuce, bananas, soy products and wheat. He explained that especially during illness, when the immune system is weak, we form allergies to foods we've eaten too much of and then the body needs other nutrients. He also stressed the importance (especially in urban areas) of washing vegetables in water plus one teaspoon of Clorox to remove chemicals.
I hung up pictures of the organs and visualized them as healed, functioning properly and in light, as Nada once instructed us. I started feeling better but it was necessary to have a surgical laparoscopy - an operation in which lasers are used to remove the lesions and scar tissue. After the operation I was put on birth control pills for six months. I found out that my sister and two aunts had had endometriosis and all three were infertile. Endometriosis has no known cause, except heredity, and is often made worse by dietary fat in the body. The doctor told me my chances of conceiving a child were slim, especially at my age (40).
I read the book Infertility and Reproductive Disorders by Michio Kushi and started the macrobiotic diet for endometriosis. For months afterward I practically lived on miso soup, kombu seaweed, aduki beans, daikon radish, kale, carrots and barley, millet or rice. That's about all and I soon felt great! I never liked any of these foods before (I was always a fruit and salad person) but I felt great and felt their healing power in my body. These foods specifically dissolve fats in the organs and strengthen the reproductive system. I also took Dong Quai, the Chinese root, daily. It has great benefits for the female hormonal system.
During this time I got married and things were looking better, but I still didn't conceive. I became resigned to not having children in this life. (My desire for bearing children has been very deep. I believe this is because I've had a lot of monastic embodiments and motherhood always seemed very foreign to me.) I really let go of the desire and started putting my attention in trying to help others at my job and in our small Study Group.
My husband, who is very athletic, encouraged me to exercise properly, visualizing blood, oxygen and energy to the affected areas. Exercise was never one of my strong habits.
A few months later I realized there was a condition in my life that was out of alignment but I was too ashamed to talk to anyone about it. I would find myself in a sweat, nervous and alone, and finally I wrote a confession letter to Mother. The sense of aloneness soon left and I felt tremendous joy and peace and a love of the will of God.
I truly felt Mother's intercession and I knew it had been necessary to write the letter of confession. Being brought up a Catholic, I reflected on the seven sacraments and their necessity in the Age of Aquarius (baptism, penance, Holy Communion, confirmation, marriage, holy orders and extreme unction). I knew I needed Mother's help to overcome my problem and I had to get over my pride in order to confess it. I remember Mother once said she'd "heard it all," so my sin couldn't have been any worse.
Soon afterwards, I started feeling ill again and I thought the endometriosis was back. (My doctor had told me if it did come back, I'd need a hysterectomy and, frankly, I was beginning to welcome it.) To my great joy and surprise I found out I was pregnant!
My joy was very great and when I calculated the time of conception, I found that it was right after I wrote the confession letter! I knew that was the last stumbling block to my soul's great desire. My doctor was surprised, my family was shocked and I am happy!
When I called my sister, the first thing she said was, "You broke the curse!" (Infertility ran in my family as well as endometriosis.) I remember in my years on staff how I would daily make the call to break the curse of infertility in my family. And now I can truly affirm: the CALL COMPELS THE ANSWER.
So I am writing this not only to tell of my experience and victory over endometriosis but to witness to Mother's role in our lives as intercessor and helper. I believe that all our happiness is truly based on the will of God and that sometimes when we are not happy we need to realize that it is ultimately of our own doing and that an out-of-alignment condition, not being centered in God's will, is what causes it.
I am so grateful for this wondrous being in my life, our beloved Guru. I cannot think what life would be without her.